खैरियत पूछो कभी तो कैफियत पूछो ... ( Ask About My Well - Being )

                                                                   खैरियत पूछो कभी तो कैफियत पूछो

                                                                  तुम्हारे बिन दीवाने का क्या हाल है

                                                 दिल मेरा देखो ना मेरी हैसियत पूछो...

Are you People gonna Google these lyrics belongs to which movie's song? Do I need to Introduce him? I know you must be thinking I am late to write about him.  But I hold my self forcefully not to write. When I heard the news about his death,  I was in shock the same as all of you. Though we all don't know him personally but somehow, somewhere we are connecting our-self with him. From Last someday everywhere only he is in limelight. Wherever he is, he must be smiling by doing like this and saying that when I was alive I didn't get that much attention which I was deserving and see now. How people are giving me tribute. 

Honestly, he became one of My Favourite After I watched him in M.S. Dhoni's Movie... and felt his mysterious smile. It's saying something which hard to describe in word. We don't know him personally, we have only seen him with a big smile, Real Truth no one knows everything is the basis of assumption. 

We can't even imagine how his Family going through, Its totally worthless to do anything in his Memory because he is not there to see and feel. As we all know every situation and person will teach us something he also did. For a while, I also did messages and calls to them who were once close to me but left me without saying a single word, I did with that thought let me just try once from my side so that there will be no regret and No If in future. 

A popular word now a day is Depression. I don't know all the psychological terms how to describe it but I can just say during that period you want someone just to be with you, Just listen to you without giving you any kind of advice, all you need is emotional support, That's it ... 

The fact is that we are scared to accept reality. Depression is a mental illness as a physical illness. I think we all have been in that phase at some point time, Isn't it ??  Yes, I will admit I have been to as well. When I overcome that situation I came to know that this is called Depression.  I didn't Visit any Doctor though. 

Let me say how I felt, I know some of my family members & relatives also going to read this. I don't know what will be their Perception but  I don't want anyone to go with the same. In my case, it was not that No one was with me as I am everyone's favourite & especially god's favourite child if I would have shared it with my family and with My Mom- Dad or Brother I know they will lift me up from that situation very easily but I, My self didn't inform them.

Why I didn't tell them? Because of Fear & Assumption... Fear of being Judged and assumption that how they going to react. 

Now you must be thinking about whats symptoms I was feeling. The people who knew me they saw me all time laughing note down I said laughing, happiest girl in the world but inside I was feeling alone, don't know what was lacking during that time I preferred to be alone, and if I was alone I preferred to sleep or just sitting at the creekside in Dubai. I was going by metro somewhere I felt many times while listening to the song's eyes were full of tears. During the night was not able to sleep, Just cried the whole night and In the morning I will be the happiest person again in front of everyone   

In a job, I was not getting a salary on time and it is like I am doing which I don't deserve whole day calling to the client, used to do more than 150 calls a day. And after all this effort if you are not getting paid you can imagine. Though my salary doesn't matter I mean my one month's salary was a half-day business profit for my father. I was doing a job because I wanted to come out of my comfort zone. 

Also one of my best friend left me alone who understood me properly, who used to handle all my tantrums who fulfilled all my demands, the one & only person I count on after my family. Unconditional Friendship. 

I am really pitty on my dad the way he tolerates me back then, though he is tolerating now as well. After coming home my behavior was so cranky he thought I am behaving like this because I am tired but the reason was different. 

But not a single time that thought came in mind to finish my life because I know how my Family and father will be if I do so. And secondly, I am a dreamer. Every day I wake up with a new dream. 

God has a perfect plan for everything. It's said that time can heal everything. God will send his Angel anyway. For me, God himself came. I can Proudly say my Lord Swaminarayan and with his blessings, I got Job in Cloud For Work FZ LLC in Dubai, UAE. 

But the question remains the same how did I overcome that situation... As I got a new job I was fully involved in that and divert my mind by writing, without that I am almost incomplete. It's not just my hobby, it's my passion, the healer of my self in any situation it makes me complete.

Now Whoever reading my blog I want to say:- when you are feeling something unusual Divert your mind, do the things which you love to do the most. No matter whatever it is. Please share it with someone, That someone can be stranger also, and it' fine if that someone is not a person. Make your weakness your biggest strength. I was introverted but I started to be with people more and more. But never think to finish your self. Just Look at your parents. You are in this world because of them, your mother didn't give you a birth to see that day... 

If you have gone through from the unusual situation make sure your near and dear one should not face the same. Be there for people. And if you cant share it with anyone remember I am always here to listen without judging you and I will understand you by keeping my self in your place. I can be your To Be Angel Because I am His Favourite Child. 

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Email:- missthanki1601@gmail.com




- Ms. Thanki
God's Favourite Child