खैरियत पूछो कभी तो कैफियत पूछो ... ( Ask About My Well - Being )

                                                                   खैरियत पूछो कभी तो कैफियत पूछो

                                                                  तुम्हारे बिन दीवाने का क्या हाल है

                                                 दिल मेरा देखो ना मेरी हैसियत पूछो...

Are you People gonna Google these lyrics belongs to which movie's song? Do I need to Introduce him? I know you must be thinking I am late to write about him.  But I hold my self forcefully not to write. When I heard the news about his death,  I was in shock the same as all of you. Though we all don't know him personally but somehow, somewhere we are connecting our-self with him. From Last someday everywhere only he is in limelight. Wherever he is, he must be smiling by doing like this and saying that when I was alive I didn't get that much attention which I was deserving and see now. How people are giving me tribute. 

Honestly, he became one of My Favourite After I watched him in M.S. Dhoni's Movie... and felt his mysterious smile. It's saying something which hard to describe in word. We don't know him personally, we have only seen him with a big smile, Real Truth no one knows everything is the basis of assumption. 

We can't even imagine how his Family going through, Its totally worthless to do anything in his Memory because he is not there to see and feel. As we all know every situation and person will teach us something he also did. For a while, I also did messages and calls to them who were once close to me but left me without saying a single word, I did with that thought let me just try once from my side so that there will be no regret and No If in future. 

A popular word now a day is Depression. I don't know all the psychological terms how to describe it but I can just say during that period you want someone just to be with you, Just listen to you without giving you any kind of advice, all you need is emotional support, That's it ... 

The fact is that we are scared to accept reality. Depression is a mental illness as a physical illness. I think we all have been in that phase at some point time, Isn't it ??  Yes, I will admit I have been to as well. When I overcome that situation I came to know that this is called Depression.  I didn't Visit any Doctor though. 

Let me say how I felt, I know some of my family members & relatives also going to read this. I don't know what will be their Perception but  I don't want anyone to go with the same. In my case, it was not that No one was with me as I am everyone's favourite & especially god's favourite child if I would have shared it with my family and with My Mom- Dad or Brother I know they will lift me up from that situation very easily but I, My self didn't inform them.

Why I didn't tell them? Because of Fear & Assumption... Fear of being Judged and assumption that how they going to react. 

Now you must be thinking about whats symptoms I was feeling. The people who knew me they saw me all time laughing note down I said laughing, happiest girl in the world but inside I was feeling alone, don't know what was lacking during that time I preferred to be alone, and if I was alone I preferred to sleep or just sitting at the creekside in Dubai. I was going by metro somewhere I felt many times while listening to the song's eyes were full of tears. During the night was not able to sleep, Just cried the whole night and In the morning I will be the happiest person again in front of everyone   

In a job, I was not getting a salary on time and it is like I am doing which I don't deserve whole day calling to the client, used to do more than 150 calls a day. And after all this effort if you are not getting paid you can imagine. Though my salary doesn't matter I mean my one month's salary was a half-day business profit for my father. I was doing a job because I wanted to come out of my comfort zone. 

Also one of my best friend left me alone who understood me properly, who used to handle all my tantrums who fulfilled all my demands, the one & only person I count on after my family. Unconditional Friendship. 

I am really pitty on my dad the way he tolerates me back then, though he is tolerating now as well. After coming home my behavior was so cranky he thought I am behaving like this because I am tired but the reason was different. 

But not a single time that thought came in mind to finish my life because I know how my Family and father will be if I do so. And secondly, I am a dreamer. Every day I wake up with a new dream. 

God has a perfect plan for everything. It's said that time can heal everything. God will send his Angel anyway. For me, God himself came. I can Proudly say my Lord Swaminarayan and with his blessings, I got Job in Cloud For Work FZ LLC in Dubai, UAE. 

But the question remains the same how did I overcome that situation... As I got a new job I was fully involved in that and divert my mind by writing, without that I am almost incomplete. It's not just my hobby, it's my passion, the healer of my self in any situation it makes me complete.

Now Whoever reading my blog I want to say:- when you are feeling something unusual Divert your mind, do the things which you love to do the most. No matter whatever it is. Please share it with someone, That someone can be stranger also, and it' fine if that someone is not a person. Make your weakness your biggest strength. I was introverted but I started to be with people more and more. But never think to finish your self. Just Look at your parents. You are in this world because of them, your mother didn't give you a birth to see that day... 

If you have gone through from the unusual situation make sure your near and dear one should not face the same. Be there for people. And if you cant share it with anyone remember I am always here to listen without judging you and I will understand you by keeping my self in your place. I can be your To Be Angel Because I am His Favourite Child. 

You Can Reach Me Out By Below Medium !!! Always Ready To Be Your Healer

Email:- missthanki1601@gmail.com




- Ms. Thanki
God's Favourite Child 

A Letter To My Love !!!

                                                                   Hey, My Love !!!

No need to ask how are you ?? Because I know without me how your condition is. When I left for Georgia I kept this letter in our cupboard, where you will go first to take Towel after reaching the home.

Well I know you will find a bit Peace in the home as I am not there, no one is there to irritate, You can watch on Tv whatever you want, You can sleep by Turning on the Light, No one will speak and laugh loudly. Even you can sleep at the side of AC. Morning you don’t have to listen to my cranky voice. Must be laughing Now. And The list will go on and on. I know that You are missing me badly and here I am as well…

Let me help you to pass the time Because I know you will not sleep until you get a call from me that I have reached safely. 

As I am better at sharing my feelings by word, allow me to say all the hidden things which I have never shared with you.

For a while, I got confused about where to start. You are my friend,  My Best Friend, My Bf & My Mirror, I am Transparent with you all the way. 

If for a Second you try to feel your presence in my life by keeping yourself in my place then maybe you will understand how much you are Important. I know I am the kind of girl who is an angry bird. Anger is always on the top of my nose & that's only with you. Because I know you are not gonna leave me or you will not judge me, Like the rest of the world. You are the man who can not see tears in my eyes. I am very proud to be yours. When the word Entrepreneurs come people will say, Tata, Birla, Ambani & So On but for me Only You appear in front of me because you have started with the Zero and you Shine, People Cheated you, Again you started from Zero, Again You face the failure but didn't give up. Till today you are working late at night just for us. 

You know what? I felt so irritated when everyday sharp 6:00 PM you are calling, just to know if I have left the office or not, but once you went to India for 15 days I didn't get the call and on 16th day when you back and you called I didn't pick the call late intentionally because I was feeling that tone which is very close to my heart. From another side I was literally Crying, I was missing to hear that ringtone which I have specially set up for your call. I know it's Hard to Believe but it's true.  

In the morning you are coming to wake me up you think that I am sleeping but sometimes I am acting, I am waiting for you to come because I love the way you wake me up with Smile, I am a blessed girl who having your hand made Chapaties. When you are having burned pizza and said this is the world's best pizza that's an unforgettable moment. You're the most selfless person I have ever seen. I am God's Favourite Child & I am Special Creation Of God Because You are His Unique creation. 

Once my friends were sitting and suddenly they start discussing the choice of music, when My turn came I gave this answer,  

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As you know that I am a Dreamer and every day I am coming to you with a new Dream and your answer always remain the same "Do what makes you Happy" I am Thankful that you are allowed to do the things which I want to do, you don't care about the society what matters to you the most is The Smile On My Face. This Free Bird Flying in Sky only because I am under your shelter and the wings are provided by you. 

Okay, I think this is enough for today and It must be 12 O'clock so go to the fridge side and see I have made a cake for you, Please have it and Record while you are having so that I can see your reaction... and I am also attaching all-time Favourite Moment of  Yours with me. 

My Love, I wish you a VERY Happy Father's Day !!!

Love you Infinity

One & Only,

Yours Angrybird. 

Yes, This is a Letter to My Love - My Dad.  He is My Love. I am Proud To Be His Daughter and Always Love To Be Known As a Mital.G.Thanki. Today whatever I am that's Only Because of Him. All dads are the world's best dad for their kids, but Mine is Extra Special. They are sacrificing their Present to make our Future secure.

Deddu a Special Note For You Today Is, "If The Whole World Will Be Against You, Still I Will Be There Standing With You By Holding Your Hand... I will be always your Lill Girl. 

- Ms. Thanki

  God's Favourite Child

Confession - Fear Of Loosing ???

As I grew up by watching Bollywood Movies when seeing or hearing word Confession only one thing comes to mind or I can only remember or relate the word Love. Specially express the love to another Individual. Now the word love doesn't mean Teenager boy & girl , It can be between Father - Daughter , Mother- Son, Brother- Sister, Friends or between the Couples. Love can be  in any form .

 

Let me get back to the word Confession . If we want to define in a simple word I can say that to reveal the Truth , No matter how harsh it will be , Either it can hurt someone or may be that person become more close to you by knowing your Openness. It will be a bit risky. It requires lots of courage to confess. We can't confess to Everyone because sometimes it's bounces back as well.

 

Totally Depends How's your Bond with specific Individual :-

• Let's take an example if kids stole Money from his/her Dad's wallet for some fun Purpose, Later on when they come to the parents it totally depends how parents react to that situation ??? If that time parents start shouting , they give them punishment then next time kids will never dare to confess about anything and then their journey towards lie will start. So Build kind of relationship with your kids that they can share things with you very openly, If you will not Provide such a freedom they will find someone else. 

• No Matter where you go in the world but somehow it's our mentality and its taboo that if a girl is smoking & drinking alcohol it will be noted as a crime and if she comes home and confesses to her parents or her Boy Friend or Her Husband will they react normally ??? Again it depends on their mindset…Though cigarettes and Alcohol are dangerous to health.  Accept your Loved Ones with all their Flow. 

• You have a crush on someone and you want to confess your Love, I Know it requires lots of Courage to Confess but you have to dare to outcome from that fear. Everything and Every situation has a Two Probability. Either He/She Will say Yes or No. Do not keep inside just dare it and Say it.  Be Prepare for the Rejection as well. 

In a Fear we are losing many Opportunities as well, But give it Try. Do not lose the Opportunity in Fear Be Brave Enough to accept the Reality. Always remember this Mantra in Life - I am God's Favourite Child. Whatever he will do that will be the best for me. 

What's Your Definition for the Confession ? 

How you describe it ? 

Mine is Here ↓

If You Want To Share Anything Which You Can't Confess To Your Parents , Or with Your Loved Once You Want to Feel Free by confessing something ... Your To Be Angel Ms. Thanki is here to Listen. Lets Catch up by one to one Talk.. 

Connect with Me By Email - missthanki1601@gmail.com

Don't Worry Your Secret's Shielded in My Heart...

- Ms. Thanki

God's Favourite Child  

God's Favourite Child

A Girl was travelling back home from a long day at work.. It was her first time she was using Bus.. She was in Dubai for 4 years but It was her first time to find which bus was going towards her home. She was a pampered princess though not a spoiled kid. For a moment she thought let me go as per my regular way then another second thought let's try something different .

 

As she entered she realized she made a right decis8ion , got a place to sit , No voice of talking human bird otherwise in a metro people will keep pushing to enter and exit or else busy in loudly talking with mobile either busy in playing games no one will smile at each other.

It was one and half Hour journey in to that moment she rewind her life, for a while she kept her mobile aside closed her eyes and by being with herself she  thought how beautiful and blessed her life is with full of ups and down with happy and sad moment, with Positive and Negative People, Some Praise her and Some Criticize her but that making her much stronger. Long list of people who love her , don’t know about haters, Day by Day she is seeing a better version of herself but still she wants to be the best.

She recalls how she was as a kid .. She believes she is God's Favorite Child … "Created by god to do something different " this quote is always written in her all books and school bags. She is actually god's favorite child , favorite of everyone , loved by her near and dear one. 

She understood the reality of life Go With The Flow … Everything will happen at Perfect Time. People & Situation will come and go in life each and every individual will teach something is up to her how she is going to take that ,, but as she becomes different then before she only chooses to be Happiest with every flow.

How she was before a year and how she is much more confident , healing and dealing with herself and others is one thing she learned to accept whatever it is. If people really want to be in your life they will find Reason if they don’t want to be then they will find Excuse. Some people will love you unconditionally while some will only do until conditions rightly apply for them. She realizes nothing will stop without any one god will send his Angel from time to time in many ways. People are not bad by birth,  situations are making them different. Actually we are only finding people bad when we are not finding their behavior according to our wish.

She was smiling by remembering those moments and sometimes tears also came out but  she didn’t wipe it because it became her habit to cry silently. Front of the world she is a fun loving girl but at the end she is …….

How she did  things to make everyone happy is that she is forgetting her own self. But now she chooses to be Happiest and Move Further. Ohhh bus stop for a minute near Mercato Mall one European  couple enter in Bus with a little Kid. She was wondering if the kid was a boy or girl ?? then she thought it doesn't matter as a man holding a kid with full of protection it must be Girl. Because she was seeing reflection of her in that girl , another Free Bird who is ready to fly in a few years which will be provided by her father as she got from her father. Allowed to Fly in her own way with her choice by being in a circle. Whenever she wants to  do anything she asks her dad she gets a reply "As your wish". Nothing more but just one word came I AM BLESSED, Daughter of the King who is rich by Heart. I have that thing which people are dreaming of.

Still she is in her own zone because still it will take time to reach home then she thought at work place she used to be shy and quite , she was thinking all are from different country no one talking with me , she was eating lunch alone with ear phone and music… later on one girl name Tamsila came to her and utter Hiiii … Omg that was a day she will never gonna forget. She realized how conversation is going to start if both sides will wait to speak first , someone needs to take Initiative to start conversation. For that she was always thankful to Tamsila , unknowingly she taught her big thing. Now she has much contact in her office and mostly knows her by name :) :) …

Again she smiles by remembering that incident when the lady cleaner called her as mam .. She said don’t call me mam we are just like a friend and that lady hugged and cried by saying she was happy to listen and be considered as a friend. Now if she is late at the office,  the lady will ask her why she came late ??? Silent caretaker.

She heard an Announcement this is last stop all passenger must leave Bus & She Came out from her zone and preparing herself for home because no matter how she is going through she will enter home with big smile and most happiest girl ,,, because she is good actor in hiding sad part of her life…and no one will came to know easily as she choose to be happiest… because She is God's Favorite Child & Created by God to do something different.

- Ms. Thanki

God's Favourite Child